words you can..feel

I would like to make a committment to you from the beginning ..

What you can read here is just simple things, ordinary could say, only one feature sets them apart somehow..for me, of course..

There are only things, I mean words, which I thoroughly believe in.. which I could feel from the heart.. It's only quite recently that I became aware of the power of these words..

I ll give an example..the most well spread..
think of the the times people say 'I love you"..I remembered that I should speak only in my behalf here..

So, the times I said "I love you" to somebody..there were a couple of times I said it..just like asking for some more water, please.. or whatever..in fact because those guys were funny, good looking, smart or just because they were caring and offered me their affection.. that is..because they fulfilled a need of mine.. and because I heard it everywere around me, it 's so natural to say to your partner 'I love you"..
I simply didn't think it could be more of it.. just say it, sounds good, make him feel great and in turn he returns the favour..what could be more to add?

The most important thing is that regarding 'my need'..
In fact, this love had nothing to do with my partner.. believe it or not, it has been a while for me to realise this 'selfish' approach of love.

But I went further from the topic of today.. Going back to words..

What a great great difference to those few times I could actually feel the other as 'another me' ..and just being glad for everything good which happened to him, regardless of the effect that it could have on me.. that is putting the other on the same position with myself.. and really taking part of his emotions..like they were mine..forgeting about 'my needs'..about selfishness..about conventions, principles and society..

This is nothing new, almost every book or movie on this topic would describe it even better than me.. I heard it before many times myself.. But what a change...what a feeling when they turned from simple words.. to organic sensations !

It s about this kind of words I want to share with you on this blog.. As I believe that humans are connected through emotions more than anything else...
Showing emotions and receiving feedback on them as well as being honest and open to the others is my attempt to improve the world ( a tiny tiny part of it) and... my way of discovering and improving myself.. becoming aware of the limits..trying to push them further..further until reaching the end of the' world' .. my world..

Where is the end and what does it look like?
that's another talk..or monolog? hope not..